OK... Calm down and back to the original problem. Where should you go?

        Possibly you can return to the East, your mother's hometown. She was forced to marry a violent king, but cleverly escaped from her first marriage. When she was alive, she was still in touch with her old friends after she came to the faraway town, and because of your mother's help, you have a couple of penpals and friends in the East, too.

        However, you remember what your friend, Otohime wrote to you. In her letter, she complained she was pressured to marry a man she had met only once. 

       What about the northland? It is said that the Snow Queen lives in the northland. You can settle down there and live freely on your own.

       For the first step, you have to travel through the forest, but it seems that you have lost your way.